Then came the struggle with my port which resulted in a report in May. After the report, with no where near the same amount of fluid in my band I gained back several (read: 10) of the pounds that I had lost before all the damn port trouble. I was very angry, ashamed, and down right depressed. Here I had paid thousands of dollars (twice) to have this band and I had hardly anything to show for it.
I've struggled to be patient and get myself back up to pre-report restriction but come on did I really have to start this damn process over again? I just about lost my mind waiting and waiting to get back up to 7ccs in my 14cc band. Finally in August we reached that point and things started moving.
Cut to October 2, 2010 - my bandiversary. I had finally dropped those 10 lbs that I had gained during my port struggles, I went to a wedding wearing a cute dress that I bought at a regular store (still from the plus sized section but not from a plus sized store), my blood pressure was extremely better (117/72), my asthma was better, and overall I felt like things were moving in the right direction.
I've lost an additional 2 lbs in the past week which puts me almost 50lbs down since surgery and 101 lbs down since my highest weight (the day I gave birth to my son). I can honestly say that this past year has been a difficult one but I'm hoping this next year with the band proves to be a fantastic one.
Here's to never weighing 376 pounds again!!!
Nicole - I'm glad you're back and doing better. It's so easy to get off track when you have set backs like you did. 50 pounds in a year is something to be proud of.
ReplyDeleteI too have experienced, set back...not with the band, but with life (husband laid off, moved across the country, and new jobs) I applaud you for focusing on how far you have come! that is what I am doing too. I am almost to my bandiversary and have lost 58lbs. I wanted to lose 75, but I can't focus on that! I loved your closing line, and so I too say "Here's to never weighing what we weighed again, and every lb is a victory!"
ReplyDeleteNicole, I too have been totally stuck...but seriously, you are already so much better off now, and you can work on the rest. Every pound is a victory, so true. Coming back to blogging is a great decision.
ReplyDeleteThis band thing can be a real challenge, I also had to have a report and it was a very hard time. The good thing about the band is that you can always start again. Here is to the next amazing year in your journey!
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ReplyDeleteYou look so great! Good for you getting back at it. It must be so frustrating to go through what you have. When I read about other people having complications, I feel so bad.
I am confident that you will reach the sweet spot once again and start losing consistently!
You look wonderful :)
ReplyDeleteDon't give up on yourself! You are doing great, just keep telling yourself this is a lifelong journey. You will get there!
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