My word for 2010 - Improve

After perusing all the other lovely bandsters' words for 2010, I decided on "improve."



I want to improve a lot of things in 2010. The short list: my health (yay, band), my activity level (got new exercise videos for christmas), my income (resume updated ready to apply for new jobs), my household maintenance (got to find a way to get it all done), and my husband's yard maintenance (ok - so he has to improve that one, but I can encourage).

Here's to all the great things 2010 has in store for all of us.

Happy New Year!

having one of those mornings

I had a dream last night that I was pregnant. It was soooooo real. I was attending a baby shower for my soon-to-be-born baby girl Riley. I woke up and felt my belly to be sure. Nope, no baby.

The morning continued with me going through my maternity clothes to put them on craigslist. I don't know what came over me but I just broke out into tears. I sobbed uncontrollably for a good 20 minutes while I sorted things into piles. I just couldn't stop crying. (OK so, maybe the Glee soundtrack CD in the background didn't help.)

I called my husband and he sympathized with me and then he said "I damn near lost you with Aidan and I don't want to ever have that fear again." My mom called too and she, while also reminding me that I almost died, gave me another reason to let go of these maternity clothes. She helped me to realize that if I was to ever want to have another baby that I would NEVER be that size again!!! She is right, even if I was to ever try to get pregnant again, I would never need the 3x-5x maternity clothes that I wore with Aidan.

AND THAT IN ITSELF is the best reason to stop crying and get these clothes sold!

fill #3 and a shout out

I had fill #3 yesterday and according to the doc's scale I had only lost 3lbs in the 3 weeks since my last fill. One freaking lb a week. How annoying!

The FNP put 1cc in my band bringing me to 4ccs in a 14cc band. Really? Can I get a little more? I had a protein shake last night for dinner so I couldn't tell if I had any new restriction or not. I'll try some eggs for breakfast in a bit and see how that goes.

We took the kids to their first Hospice death preparation counseling session last night. Talk about a hard thing to do. They each seemed to like the counselor and hopefully it will be good for them. We have an appointment to go back next week for some more 1 on 1 time. If you are the positive thinking/praying type (which I am not really) please add my childrens' mother to your list. We know she has a very short time left but we are hoping/praying that she can hold on through Christmas.

Sorry for that bit of downer, I do have some good news, too.

There is a new blogger out there who I met through lapbandtalk.com. She's just joining the blogging world after 3 months of being banded. I've had the pleasure of being in e-mail contact with her for about a month and she is an awesome friend. Everyone check out Tina's Big Band Baby Blog.

it counts!

I was pleasantly surprised to see that the scale moved this morning. I have finally moved past my 10% goal. I moved my ticker to reflect the loss of 33lbs since the start of this WLS journey.

I was thinking maybe I need two tickers. While 33lbs reflects my weight loss since I started the pre-op diet, in the past year I have actually lost 87lbs. Granted, I was 8 months pregnant at my highest weight, but that still counts as LBs lost - right?

It's been 2 months since I was banded. I want it to move faster. It's my fault though. I haven't been drinking enough water and I haven't started a good exercise routine. It doesn't help that I get every stupid cold/virus that my little one brings home from daycare. (like today - sniff sniff, cough, sniff sniff) But I'm the only one that can do it. I need to focus! Drink more water, get off my ass, and move that scale along.